My Perfect World

The past few days have been hectic. Too many changes happening to my perfect world. Change is not my best friend. I am trying to take one day at a time for now. I am also practicing the art of deception to divert my mind.

So, I‘ve been reading some Kannada since the past few days. Accidentally stumbled on “Mankutimma”. I have read only a few verses till date and not really pondered over the relevance. Wiki says, the work “Mankutimmana Kagga” is called the Bhagavad Gita in Kannada. You have to agree with that. The Kagga has answers to all the questions we can ever ask ourselves. How could one man have written this in his lifetime? It is hard to imagine the experiences he has had that’s enabled him to write this profound piece. I am unable to describe the awesomeness of the work. If you know the language, it is even better!

Now there’s one verse that’s gnawing my mind from many days describing the illusion or everything perfect. The habit of expecting the “prefect everything” will only spread negativity. The perfect house, the perfect partner, the perfect job, the perfect lunch, the perfect blog post…….it never ends…this obsession. Once you stop this mania, I think you will start finding  satisfaction and happiness even. I also understand that there is a balance you ought to achieve. Less expectation also throws you back in life. Balance is the key…which I am struggling to find!

On a lighter note, I’ll stop worrying that my house is not really spic and span. I see that I am raising happy children in the same house J.

ಸರಿಯಾಗಲಿಲ್ಲವದು ಸರಿಯಿದಲ್ಲವೆನುತ ।
ಹರಡಿಕೊಳಬೇಡ ಮುಳ್ಳನು ಹಾಸಿಗೆಯಲಿ ।।
ಕೊರೆಯಾದೊಡೇನೊಂದು ನೆರೆದೊಡೇನಿನ್ನೊಂದು ।
ಒರಟು ಕೆಲಸವೊ ಬದುಕು ಮಂಕುತಿಮ್ಮ ।।

"This is not right, that is not correct":
Saying thus, spread not thorns on your bed.
So what if something is not perfect?
Life is but a rough job. --Mankuthimma

[With reverence to Sri DVG]

[Reference: http://daily-kagga.livejournal.com/19576.html]

Realization

Taking decisions seems so easy. Both small and large, personal and professional. When I look back on the past few days, months and years, I can recognize a pattern in my thought process while confronting a decision making occasion. I always stand out of the problem and have a third party view and take a decision which is right at that point of time.


Have I regretted any of them? Yes, I have. But has it stopped me from taking decisions in this method? No. Simply because I find it easy to detach myself and not dwell on regrets too much. I work towards forgetting the bad feeling that is associated with regret and learning from the process. Maybe this is my escape route and it works for me. It works because, all my life, with all the ups and downs, I have suddenly discovered that I have generally been a happy person! My light bulb moment for this year :-).